Humans are such irritating, complex beings. They say that human are born pure and happy. But it's what happens in life that brings about a change to us, that twists our personality, that makes us selfish, angry, sad, and wretched at the same time. Deep inside we do know that it's wrong, but yet we still feel.

It's stupid to want to stop "feeling", simply because it's impossible.

But Kenji, you are not a bad person despite of all the things you feel in your heart.

As Flamie has said before, you're Kenji.

You're the Kenji who makes us laugh with your cracked up jokes. You're the Kenji who we treat as someone really close to our hearts. You're the Kenji who has had his heart broken over and over again. You're the Kenji who's struggling against loneliness and hurt. You're the Kenji who has selfish wishes, who loves and falls.

You're Kenji.

We see you for who you are. We don't give a shit about whatever faults you think you have - because to us, you are you. And that's it. We don't see you as someone "bad", as someone who's "emotional", as someone who's "selfish". We like you as you are, regardless of how many challenges you face. We like you as you are, hear it? If you claim yourself to be a "bad person", then fine, we still like the "bad Kenji" because it's still "Kenji". And nothing will ever change that. YOU ARE KENJI, DAMN IT. Stop being an idiot and thinking about how you will become "bad". All of us have our bad sides, and you know it. It sounds horrible cliched, I know, but it's damn well true. I have my downs, Flamie has her downs. Does it matter? We're all friends, aren't we? That's why we're here!

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I must warn you, though, Kenji.

No matter what you do, never give in to vengeance.

It's okay to feel angry. It's okay to feel like smashing someone's head to a wall. Heck, every morning I have a list of people who I want to butcher with a pickaxe. I suppose that's fine - these feelings are temporary, they're nothing serious, and I would never ever physically do it.

But when it starts turning into an obsession, then you have to be careful. And tell us straightaway. Alright? Because Flamie and I will shake ya' out of it.

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By the way, thanks, guys. For the encouragement, for the support. I've never thought about things in that way, but you two do help me to see things from a different perspective.

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You know what? Sometimes I think courage is all we need. The courage to admit who we really are deep inside, what we fear, and what we desire. And we've been admitting openly how we do fall to pieces. So that makes us a really brave lot, huh?

I guess sometimes everyone just needs to be brave to see things a little differently. To accept. To forgive. To forget. Healing takes time - and the process of healing is a difficult one that takes bravery from the one who's hurt.

Today I sorta screwed up my Economics test. And I came home with a sore throat, feeling all upset, depressed and utterly screwed up. So I was like, "hey, I'mma just gonna draw something." And so here it goes...

No matter how hard things are, just try again.

One more time. 

Kenji must not ruin himself. 
Kenji must save himself.
Anne must stop fearing the past.
Flamie must continue being the one we love.
Kenji will continue feeling, although
that perhaps may not be such a bad thing
if it leaves you contented to being able to feel in this manner

but if it doesn't, and if it hurts too much beyond recognition
then cut it off
and watch it bleed away, never to return again

however, if you do that
beware, for you may turn into a cold, unapproachable person

the best way is to always have a balance between the two

and have your friends by your side.