epic flamie is epic . xD
good luck again for your spm anne,
now to rant.
i find myself still being manipulated by these crappy feelings of affection, it has been made very clear that he is well straight, i don't know its hard to tell, i keep telling myself not to define him as something important to me or in my life, yet i still find myself being stupidly in love with him, talking to him, being with him, all makes me happy. and yet so hurt at the same time, i cannot stand how sensitive i am to the way he treats me. i find myself being all sad devastated and in rage when he doesn't seem to pay attention to my feelings, i hate that he doesn't even fucking realize what i am experiencing, and bother to be nicer or attempt to be more attentive when i try to talk to him, all i can say is fuck myself and fuck love. after all it is all my own doing that im feeling stupid nowadays. ah well. hopefully this feeling will pass on soon.
so today is prom night, everyone's dressing up etc etc. looking forward to it,
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