well well, i seem to be in quite a predicament. but before i get to that, i shall elaborate on my day first, couldnt sleep at all last night, had to wake up with barely enough sleep for literature, well i did finish the paper ofcourse n i think i did fairly well. hopefully, tomorrow is chemistry and by the end of the week i'll be freeeeeeeee!
okay anyways. i seem to be fighting off my feelings, i seem to have fallen for a friend of mine. typically a guy friend of mine who i have been getting close to since the beggining of the year. problem is, he's well a guy, he's nice and all and im typically falling for him. i've been questioning my feelings for him for quite some time. since well august typically. even my phone application knows my feelings which is well kinda obvious. then again he's straight and thats something i have to deal with. okay im not exactly sure if he's straight. we talk all lovey dovey in texts and online and in real life, but i know its in a joking matter, should i let myself be fooled? nah. he's fallen for this girl, thats rejected him a couple of times. well since he likes a girl is he considered straight? i dont know. gah i hate being homosexual, its like when u fall for someone its so hard, u never know if they are of the same sexuality and when u try it might screw the friendship. bleh, today he came over to study. it was fun. things for physical and it lead me to question he's sexuality. but ah well. i shall not think about it for now.i recently found this website for horoscope and it really depicts my personality well. when a pisces falls for someone, they fall hard.
ah love, this strange emotion, why do you choose to surface now of all times and for someone whom i will most definitely not want to be in a relationship with, because as we all know a relationship leads to broken friendship in the end. not that i should be expecting a relationship to begin in the first place. enough about my stupid babblings of love..
chemistry is tomorrow. 4days left. BANZAI!
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