Ah, Gumi because some friends and I have been roleplaying as Vocaloids. I chose to be Gumi.

Well.

Simply put.

I hate it here.

This will be depressing. Skip if you will.

I feel more lonely over here in NZ. My confidence is at an all-time low because I've returned back to Malaysia. What can I say? In just one week I've felt worse than any time I've been in NZ. I haven't felt this bad for a long time. I mean, I'm tempted to deactivate facebook. And I never deactivate my facebook. Not even when there's like really major mojo exams and shit.

People have been asking me to go out. They're mostly guys who were interested in me, and most probably still are.

I'm a fucking monster to be smiling and saying, "Yeah, okay," when I totally don't want to do that at all. The last thing I want is to have their feeling rekindling and me having to handle more shit. I just want to avoid everyone here.  Jesus, what's wrong with me?

It's strange. I like helping people out, listening to their stuff and giving them advice, but I can hardly handle my own shit.

My parents are arguing as usual.

I can't get out from arguing as usual.

The only change is that instead of screaming like the little twat I used to be, I'm now being assertive with cold tones and firm glares.

Bet they like the change.

Bet they don't.

At any rate, it's just...I really want to get out. Like, I don't even care about the holidays anymore. I just want to start out my two degrees as soon as possible.